Back in the saddle again

I'm back! Hubby is home after 5 weeks away, so I'm smiling again. So, just a few photos from the last weeks. I have started to make my first Matryoshka doll cushion cover (it's in progress in the photo)

Cumin having a meditative moment on the ironing board, 

Otto telling my husband in no uncertain terms that he is not allowed to go away again for SOME TIME

Ruppin recovering from anaesthetic after 4 biopsies. Poor Lad!

Milestones and memories

In four hours time it will be my mother in laws funeral. I will not be there because it is on the other side of the world. When my husband went to be with his mother for the second time this year, he didn't know that three weeks later he would be leading her funeral. It feels so wrong to be so far away. All our friends have been very kind and supportive. It is difficult to explain that I want to hide away and not talk. Life is expected to go on, and it should, it has to, but of I'm really honest, I am living emotionally in a dark cave at the moment, and I would quite like to stay there. On the outside I am still engaging with the world, but it is a pretence. On the inside I have holed up in a secret compartment, and I'm not coming out for a while.